…But Deliver Us From Bipolar
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There was a time in my life when I wanted to soar on the wings of eagles and claim healing in Jesus’ name.
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder at 16, and I wanted to be healed by the blood, touched by the hand of God – with the divine intervention of a miracle. I yearned to be miraculously back to normal – no medication needed.
The faith within me was strong. After being committed to the juvenile psych ward for 3 weeks, the doctor prescribed me antidepressants and antipsychotics, I started an out-patient therapy program, and began my journey back to health. I was claiming Isaiah 53:5 out loud, over myself, over and over. “By His stripes I am healed.”
When I prayed, I confessed my sins, I believed with all my heart and confessed aloud “Father, heal me.” Healing finally came, eight years later. In the form of the hospital doors sealing shut behind me.
Healing finally came.
It was three months in and out of the psych unit,
It was trial and error on my medications,
It was numerous days and nights of unanswered prayers,
It was admission into chaos and confusion,
It was fasting from food and no appetite,
It was shock and ambush to my psyche,
It was making momentary and daily mistakes,
It was the test of my faith in the ultimate crucible,
It was the sifting of my soul,
It was my mind playing tricks on me,
It was coming to reality that medication was the answer,
It was facing the ugliness and monster of my mental illness,
It was admitting that I needed help through medicine and therapy.
I was healed, don’t get me wrong, but it wasn’t a deliverance from bipolar. It was the healing touch of God who said His grace was sufficient. The healing was a journey. Today, I live and lead a full life. I attribute it to the grace of God in answered prayer through medication and therapy. I don’t deal with side effects of medication or symptoms of the disorder, but I don’t consider myself delivered from bipolar.
No, not until this body and mind pass away with the order of life and death, will I be out of the realm of bipolar. I will be how I ought to be – fully alive in a new body and mind – resurrected unto eternal life in Jesus Christ.
Now I search for others who are struggling in their mental illness and desire to comfort and share hope with them. The hope that Jesus promises to all who believe – that come one day, we who belong to the Father will see the face of Jesus and the person of God in a new heaven and earth. It will be a new creation manifested in Jesus’ return and the Almighty God of Heaven and Earth who created all things and through Him all things exist.
And we won’t have mental illnesses or brain-based conditions that makes us sick, that require medications to treat. It will be then that I am delivered from bipolar disorder. For now, it’s subdued and managed, but deliverance isn’t the expectation…yet.
Bravely,
Katie
5 Comments
His Writeous Author—Talisha
Wow, speechless. Thank you for admitting this. A lot of people or under the impression that Christians don’t have these sort of problems and it’s a disservice to those who are new in the faith who believe all of their problems, anxiety, depression, and of course bipolar disorder will just disappear during conversion, but indeed it is worked on day by day. Most times healing is a process, but God still gets the glory in the end. God bless you.
Katie R. Dale
Talisha, yes! Christians have mental illness too! It’s definitely a process that God can use for His purposes and plans. He’s our Creator and being the good Creator He is, can most definitely heal His creation. I feel like He has healed me through medication. My humble daily pills keep me sane, thank God. Besides, had I wanted to be completely healed without medication I would have wanted healing for my own vanity. He knows what’s best.
Apostle Jacqueline Stewart
Greetings in Jesus name, my testimony is different. I not here to challenge anyone’s faith or the decision of how they would medicate bipolar. Bipolar in my life was rooted in genetics, childhood trauma to include incest and environment. At one time I was so manically depressed I could not get out of bed for 2 years.
The medication I learned about was the spiritual blood of the Lamb of God. As the Holy Spirit led me to get up at 3 am every morning and prostate on my face in worship to Jesus in a fashion as Mary Magdellan did. Per Hebrews 10, I entered the Holiest aka Throneroom aka Surgery Intensive Care Room with Jesus daily. The Lord began a transformation sanctification process on my mind. Purging me, delivering me from iniquitous spirits, even from my mother’s womb and from the spirits of rejection. It was a painful process go through forgiving every trauma of abuse like peeling an onion. The dead parts of my brain began to function as I communed with Jesus and through every step of healing and deliverance I knew I was taking the Living Healing water and blood of Jesus as my spiritual medicine daily. The scriptures that comes to mind now are Revelation 22:17 and John Chapter 6 KJV
My 100% cure from the roots was a process prostrate before the throne of the Holy Lamb of God for 13 months. As the Lord purged and mended my shattered heart and mind I actually felt pain. The Lord spoke to me it is done. I am healthy minded today, living a life pleasing to Jesus. He is my Wonderful Counselor, The Physician of my soul (mind will emotions), spirit and body
I am a retired judge. I retired early due to being a victim of attempted murder and rape in 1994. It was after this crisis that the bipolar, DID, Complex PTSD, tumors, fibromyalgia, high blood pressure, anxiety, became the worst. Through learning Jesus as Great High Priest aka Physician, the power of His Blood as medicine , transformation of my innermost parts, I have been 100 % healed from all physical mental emotional spiritual and sexual diseases and illnesses.
Today and for the past 25 years Jesus uses me in my Crown of Glory Trauma Recovery Outreach, setting the mentally ill free, by His precious blood as 100 full cure from the roots and genetic roots ; Zechariah 2:5 says He is the glory in the midst of us and a wall of fire around us. Through the spiritual Fire of the Holy Spirit, I specialize in trauma aka recovery, and deep rooted mental illness to include deliverance from the spirits of perversion and suicide.
I am redeemed by the blood of the Lamb and Words of my testimony …Revelation 12:11a
God bless you
Apostle Jacqueline Stewart
Greetings in Jesus name, my testimony is different. I not here to challenge anyone’s faith or the decision of how they would medicate bipolar. Bipolar in my life was rooted in genetics, childhood trauma to include incest and environment. At one time I was so manically depressed I could not get out of bed for 2 years.
The medication I learned about was the spiritual blood of the Lamb of God. As the Holy Spirit led me to get up at 3 am every morning and prostate on my face in worship to Jesus in a fashion as Mary Magdellan did. Per Hebrews 10, I entered the Holiest aka Throneroom aka Surgery Intensive Care Room with Jesus daily. The Lord began a transformation sanctification process on my mind. Purging me, delivering me from iniquitous spirits, even from my mother’s womb and from the spirits of rejection. It was a painful process go through forgiving every trauma of abuse like peeling an onion. The dead parts of my brain began to function as I communed with Jesus and through every step of healing and deliverance I knew I was taking the Living Healing water and blood of Jesus as my spiritual medicine daily. The scriptures that comes to mind now are Revelation 22:17 and John Chapter 6 KJV
My 100% cure from the roots was a process prostrate before the throne of the Holy Lamb of God for 13 months. As the Lord purged and mended my shattered heart and mind I actually felt pain. The Lord spoke to me it is done. I am healthy minded today, living a life pleasing to Jesus. He is my Wonderful Counselor, The Physician of my soul (mind will emotions), spirit and body
I am a retired judge. I retired early due to being a victim of attempted murder and rape in 1994. It was after this crisis that the bipolar, DID, Complex PTSD, tumors, fibromyalgia, high blood pressure, anxiety, became the worst. Through learning Jesus as Great High Priest aka Physician, the power of His Blood as medicine , transformation of my innermost parts, I have been 100 % healed from all physical mental emotional spiritual and sexual diseases and illnesses.
Today and for the past 25 years Jesus uses me in my Crown of Glory Trauma Recovery Outreach, setting the mentally ill free, by His precious blood as 100 full cure from the roots and genetic roots ; Zechariah 2:5 says He is the glory in the midst of us and a wall of fire around us. Through the spiritual Fire of the Holy Spirit, I specialize in trauma aka recovery, and deep rooted mental illness to include deliverance from the spirits of perversion and suicide.
I am redeemed by the blood of the Lamb and Words of my testimony …Revelation 12:11a
God bless you
Katie
Apostle Jaqueline,
Your testimony is beautiful, and I thank you for sharing that Jesus healed your mind from those spirits and ailments. I know you commented on my YouTube video, and I saw them but I didn’t delete the comments – YouTube and my spam filter do that. I pray you continue in the grace and the healing of Christ and it appears you are doing well, without need for medication. I appreciate your comments and testimony to the divine power of Jesus’s work in your mind and life. That is tremendous.